Enough

Written by Courtney Siefring

 

Describe how a song has inspired you towards a greater faith.
 
In my case, maybe the question is more of how has my faith has inspired a song and in turn it has inspired me to a closer relationship with God. All my life I have lived with a faith that was more shame based. I thought that I was saved because of what I did. Always trying to earn God’s love and earn other people’s approval. I have lived with this false idea that if I could somehow earn God’s love that it in turn would mean that I was good enough. Well, after decades of trying to be “good enough’ I wore tired, drained, and felt like no matter what I did…that I would never be good enough for God.

 

So I fell away from him. My faith wore thin and before I knew it I was living deep in sin. I had lost sight of God and started living only for myself. It took a huge fall and the threat of losing everything for God to finally reach me. I was completely broken and at the brink of losing all I held dear. God got my attention and I had to be at the brink of loosing everything to turn around and let God take over. This void inside of me was gapping even more and I felt empty. Like I was worthless. Like I wasn’t even worthy to be loved by God.

 

It was around that time that Pastor Tony said something that changed my faith forever. He said, that repentance is like a huge gap between you and God. Then when you turn around and ask for forgiveness and ask God to take you back he doesn’t ask you to even meet him half way, he runs to where you are and takes you back in his arms eagerly. He said “Sounds like you’ve been living with shame based faith. I would encourage you to live with grace based faith.” When he said this, everything I had believed up to that point shifted.

 

I was finally starting to understand, I can’t EARN God’s love. Nothing I do, nothing I say, or think will ever make God love me more or less. I started  shifting my thinking to knowing that I am enough just because God says I am. I am a child of God and regardless of how “good” or “broken” I am we are all sinners. I don’t need anyone else to tell me that I am enough. I don’t need to prove anything to anyone or to God.

 

So a song was written…the words flowed out of me like a rushing river. This was a song that would change my faith forever not because somehow I didn’t already know the message of the song…but because I needed to write those lyrics so that I could hear them out load and hear them often. The more that you hear something, the more you will believe it. These lyrics would symbolize the rebuild of my grace based faith.  I wasn’t aware of how God would use this personal song, to help touch hearts of others who may need to hear this message.

 

Months later I was encouraged to share my song with Cory, Wesley Chapel’s Worship Leader as me being a part of the worship team, somehow maybe God could use this song in worship. Knowing how choosy Cory is with worship music I was doubtful that he would go for it. He even warned me upfront that he would listen to it but that he couldn’t promise it would be used at Wesley Chapel. Well, God apparently had bigger plans for that song because Cory loved it and was eager for us to lead it as a worship song weeks later.

 

This song was God breathed. It was a song written from the very core of my soul that God has used to spread a very important message. That message is that no matter what you have ever done, God sees your sin but wants to pull you back into his loving arms. He longs for you, yes you who are filthy and covered with sin. Yes you, who believes you are too dirty to step foot in a church. Yes you, who thinks you will never be enough for God. That you will never be able to live up to his expectations, so why try?

 

The truth is that there is nothing that you could say or do that could make God not want you. He took the pain and suffered on a cross so he could be with you. There is no circumstance that he can’t undo. He took your sin and nailed it to the cross. There is nothing that you can do to earn that. He’s already done it! So just take the gift of grace and turn around away from your sin and he will be right there with open arms ready to take you back and help you walk away from the life of sin. Isn’t it amazing to know that there is nothing you can do to earn his love? That’s a huge weight lifted. That’s life changing, right? You are already enough for him, allow him to be enough for you!

 

ENOUGH

I’m on my knees

I doubt you could ever forgive me

But your grace is free

So Lord pour it on me

 

You lift me up

You give me your love

You tell me I’m enough

You tell me I’m enough

You’ve given me life

And I give you mine

You tell me I’m enough

You tell me I’m enough

 

You see my sin

And still choose to pull me back in

Please help me see

That you still want me

 

You lift me up

You give me your love

You tell me I’m enough

You tell me I’m enough

You’ve given me life

And I give you mine

You tell me I’m enough

You tell me I’m enough

 

No matter who I’ve been

No matter what I’ve done

There’s no battle that you wouldn’t overcome

You took my sin

Nailed it to the cross

To be with me

 

No matter what I say

No matter what I do

There’s no circumstance that you can’t undo

You took my shame

Turned it into praise

You got to me

You got to me

 

You lift me up

You give me your love

You tell me I’m enough

You tell me I’m enough

You’ve given me life

And I give you mine

You tell me I’m enough

You tell me I’m enough

 

One Response to “Enough”

  1. Harvey Hamilton says:

    Thank you for sharing your story Courtney! I love that song and especially love it when you sing it in worship service.👏🙏
    Thank you Cory for your Holy Spirt inspired Worship🙏👏

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